Just a Bad Day

So today I was actually in a good mood, until now. Sometimes you just have those days where one minute you will be happy and laughing and the next angry and upset. I really don't know why that happens. I should, I am a psychology major, but I don't. Today I sit here staring at my computer. My mind is pretty blank right now. I had to read over a hundred pages for my classes, and I cannot think anymore. All I can think about is getting in my bed and watching a movie. I think tomorrow is going to be a bad day too. I am being very pessimistic right now. I have now gone home for the past two weeks leaving on Thursday. This week I am staying here. I think I am a little bummed about it. I never wanted to be the girl who always went home, but I think I am becoming that way. I miss my family. That unconditional love they offer no matter what. I can wake up in the morning looking like a creature that has crawled out of a jungle and I still get a pleasant hi from them. I wake up here with a greeting of "what is wrong with you today." I need that comfort from others, I really miss that about my family.

So I sit here complaining again. I believe 3/4's of my blogs have been me either complaining about Tucson, school, or some other insignificant thing. It is hard to believe I have something to complain about when you look at others. There are people without homes and food, and I complain because I cannot go home for the weekend. I think I am a spoiled brat sometimes. I don't appreciate enough, I should though. For a day I need to put myself in someone else's situation and then maybe I won't complain about me all the time.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day. One where I wake up in my comforting bed, looking out the window to see the sun. But who am I kidding... I never wake up in a comforting bed. It is a bunk bed made from the 1950's. How could that possibly be comfortable. If I sit up straight my head will touch the sealing, while particles from a poor paint job manage to fall on me. And looking out the window to see the sun? That won't happen either. The windows in my room are fake. I open the blinds and what do you know; a painted window. That is really practical...

So lets just pretend that my bed is a large size made from this century and my windows go the length of a wall. Maybe then I will have a good day if I look at it that way. Just maybe I will have a good day. I guess we just have to wait and see what happens, no way to tel how it will be. I will update tomorrow whether that sun shined in on me or not. We will see.