My last blog

Well this is my last blog entry I probably will ever write. To be quite honest I am only doing it to replace the one I missed a few weeks back. I really wish I was done with school for break now. It is too bad I have to go back for about a week then turn around and come home then go back ten days later and take a final. It is a hassle. School should just be finished for break on Thanksgiving. It only makes sense. I come home and go holiday shopping and put up the decorations and relax only to have to turn around and go back. Ugh... That would be nice, but I guess I am hoping for something unrealistic. Well shoot... I have a lot I need to get done today. I have two papers due this week, which sucks, and I have two exams the following week for which I haven't even done a single reading for. I am a little bit screwed I have to admit. I am so far behind in my online class too. I have a quiz in there this week that I have to do extremely well on, and I have a feeling since I have not done any of the readings for the class since oh I don't know the last exam, I am not going to do well. I think I am just really burnt out now. Everything gets thrown at you the last couple weeks and it is a bit too much. I just don't have the time or the effort to try and get it done. I shouldn't have slacked off, but I got sick, and just busy with other exams and papers that I just did not have time to keep up with all my readings for the last exams. Hopefully it won't show in my final grades. I really need a 4.0 this semester. The boost would be really helpful for my admissions to law school. If I don't do well on the Lsat then gpa is all I will really have, so it needs to continue to go up over this and the next semester. I am so tired right now, and the last thing I want to do is homework. I swear that always happens when I come home. I never get to just come home and relax and watch TV. There is always a pile of books sitting on the edge of my bed begging me to read them. Oh gosh.... Only a week left then I am about free besides that hopefully only one final I will have!

Off to bed

Well here is my last post for the week. I cannot believe I am already leaving tomorrow for Hawaii. It came so quickly. I literally have to be awake in five hours. I am not looking forward to that. I wish the flight could be later in the day, so I wouldn't feel so exhausted and rushed in the morning. That is always the worst. Having to wake up early, get everything together, and hurry up to the airport in all the morning rush hour traffic. I think the best time to fly is around noon. I hate the red eye flights too. Those just make you feel like absolute crap the next day. It pretty much ruins the whole first day of your vacation. I think almost every time I have had a red eye I have fallen asleep later that day in the hotel or cruise ship room. It kind of sucks. But I guess that is the only way to get across the country without having to pay for an extra night at a hotel. It is kind of a waste when you don't get in till around 9 at night then you just sleep there. Except I actually get to sleep, not have to dose off on an airplane squished between my parents and boyfriend. I am a little nervous for tomorrow's flight, just because it is so long and we are flying over the ocean. I will feel much better once I get off the plane and walk through the airport in Maui. The best feeling is when you pull up to your hotel. I have always been one of those kids who goes through everything in the hotel room. I check out all the cupboards and I explore every little area of the hotel. I do the same thing every time we go on a cruise ship. Even if it is exactly same as a ship I have been on before I just want to walk around and find new and different things. Maybe if I wasn't so scared of being away and alone from people I could be some sort of explorer. I think being an archeologist would be a pretty cool job. Just getting to travel the world and dig up history. I can't imagine the feeling you would have if you found something really interesting. Well I need to get some sleep now. I will be back to blog in a week!!!

The day has finally come

Well the day is finally here, I'm off to Hawaii in less than 24 hours. I absolutely cannot wait. It seems like forever I have been waiting for this day. I have to admit though, I am pretty scared to fly, especially over the water. O well... I guess there is nothing I can do about it if I want to go. I will be extremely excited the moment I get off the plane in Maui. It is too bad we have a layover. I like it better when I only have to deal with taking off and landing once. After this boring class that I am in right now, I am going to get some lunch, and load up my car. I only have two more classes then I am out of here. It sucks I am going to get home so late tonight though. I am going to have a lot to do. I just decided this class is probably one of the most boring classes I have ever taken. The entire time I just look at stuff online. Right now I am trying to find a house for next year. It is pretty difficult to find one. They are either too far, too much money, in a bad area, not enough bedrooms or bathrooms, or someone doesn't like it. I wish I was just really rich could afford a house right next to campus, tear it down and build a brand new one in the ways I especially want it. I have looked on pretty much every single website that could possibly list any house, but there just isn't much out there. I think this could be because a lot of people are still living in them currently for this year and they are just not up for rent for next year. And if they are up for rent, they want you to start paying rent right away, which I do not have the money to do. So, I guess I will just have to keep looking. I cannot believe I am already leaving for Thanksgiving break. My first teacher today was giving us crap for missing, but I e-mailed her back in March to maker sure it was not going to be a problem, and if it was I would not have taken her class. I guess first impressions are not always right. It will be nice to end that class. Today I was giving a presentation, and because I got something wrong she corrected me right in the middle. I thought that was pretty rude. I was already nervous talking in front of everyone and then she has to correct me in front of everyone. Ugh some people just have no respect. Well only about 5 hours left and I am off to Phoenix. I will write another blog tonight to update how my packing and stuff is going. See you all later!!!!

Good night!

I'm back again and I'm trying to type really quietly because my roommates are sleeping. I forgot to do my second blog today and I didn't want to have to get out of my bed again. It is such a hassle to have to do that because I am on the top bunk and I have to be really quiet and open the door and get my computer. It is just a big hassle. It is hard to type quiet, because then I have to type slow. Tomorrow is the big day. I have a presentation, then I turn in my big English project and then I'm off to Phoenix to pack and get ready for Hawaii. I cannot believe it is already here. It came so quickly. I was hoping it would come quicker back five weeks ago and now it is here. And then sooner than I even know it will come to an end. I am so tired tonight. I have been staying up way too late. I am not even getting a full nights rest of at least 8 hours. It has been more like 6 or 7. Sometimes even less. O well... I am going on vacation and I can catch up there. As long as my parents snoring issues don't get to me. That could really suck. They snore so loud I can hardly even fall asleep and once I do they often at times wake me up. I thought I was going to be in bed early tonight, but I had to work on my website some more and do all my citations. I think citations are the worst part of papers, because I think it takes so long. I have to find all the sources and information and organize it. If citations weren't in papers I think I would enjoy them more. I cannot believe this semester is almost to an end. It does not seem like Christmas will be here in almost a month let alone Thanksgiving next week! This semester flew by, one of the quickest. Next semester should be pretty good. I have always seemed to like the Spring semester more. Maybe there is more breaks or just more fun things to do. Who knows. But I think my typing is starting to get kind of loud, so off I am to bed. Good night!

What I'm Doing

So I just finished packing and I am already extremely tired. I guess I don't realize how annoying packing can be, especially when half of my clothes I am bring are still sitting in my hamper. I refuse to do laundry here because the machines really suck, so I often just take it home with me. So now I have to wait till at least 7 tomorrow night and do all my laundry. It is going to be a very late night. Then on top of that I have to be up the next morning by 5. Wow, I am going to be tired. Hopefully I just sleep on the flight. It is going to be a long one. Very Very long... We are traveling for over 8 and a half hours. That is more than I go to school in a week. I mean I haven't been doing much today and I am already exhausted. It could be too, because I just went and got the swine flu shot about three hours ago, so maybe that is what is making me tired. I think I like being able to have all my stuff at home and pack from there. I wish I could have just gone shopping and bought some new stuff for the trip, but Christmas is coming up, so I guess I just have to wait until then to get some new clothes. So for the rest of my night I guess I am just going to be finishing up any packing I do have left and to finish up my website. It is pretty much done, but I still have to cite some sources, put it up on Facebook, and make my cover page. Wow I can't believe I am finally going to finish it. I have been working on it for quite a while now. It will be nice to see the finished project. Let's just hope I get it done by 10 tonight. I want to get into bed and finish my movie. I am being a total geek and finishing the Lord of the Rings trilogy. The last one is on instant on Netflix, so it is the extended version which is 4 and a half hours. I have about one left, so hopefully I can finish it tonight. Tomorrow I should get a new movie sent to my home in Phoenix, and that way I can take it with me on my vacation. I will definitely need something to do on that flight. It sucks though, because I don't think my computer will last that long. If anything it will last for one movie, then its over with and dead. I think I am starting to ramble. Maybe it is because I am getting really tired. Well I will be back on here tonight writing another blog. I am trying to write two today and tomorrow so that I don't have to worry about doing any on the trip. If anything I will just catch up on some readings I have missed since I have been so busy with other stuff.

Compaints!

Good morning everyone. Today already looks like it may turn into a crappy day. I am pretty tired, stayed up too late last night, and now I am stuck in an extremely boring lecture. My professor is sick and instead of canceling class he has some annoying TA teaching the course like she actually knows what she is talking about. I had to sit over the class time in my first class and listen to my teacher rant and rave like she always does. I think it is going to be a bad day, because I want this week to be over with. I am so ready to go on my vacation and just lay out on the beach. Tomorrow I have to go volunteer... Then I have to drive all the way out to Oro Valley to deliver something. So tomorrow the day is pretty much shot. I am pretty hungry right now too. The food has been absolutely disgusting lately at my house. Literally we have potatoes for dinner tonight. A potato? Really? What a joke... That is what you get when you have a steak or chicken piece with it, not just a potato. Last night it was this nasty dry chicken with a can of tomato chunks pored onto it. I think for lunch today it is some nasty french dip. I can't even imagine eating the nasty meat from that house. Ugh... I can't wait to go home and have some home cooking or a nice restaurant. Hawaii is definitely sounding better and better every day it gets closer. Only three more days. It cannot come any sooner. You know what else bugs me? When I am doing stuff on the internet in class and the person next you is staring over my shoulder reading and watching what I am doing. I think it is creepy. I just want to push their face away and be like mind your own business. I feel like I can even change the page online, because they are watching it like a hawk. Wow... Today is just full of complaints for me. I think I need a break to lay down. After this class I get a nice lunch break for about an hour and a half. I am going to put on some comfy clothes, lay in my bed, and watch a movie on my computer for a little bit. Oh! I just thought of another annoying thing. I hate, hate the kids in class who always raise their hands especially in lectures to ask STUPID questions. It is usually the older people, or just some kid who really doesn't understand much at all. My eyes are slowly closing now. I am SO SO SO tired.

Tonight

This is going to be a quick blog. I am about to watch a movie and I completely forgot I still needed to do another blog today. I suppose I could miss it and make it up during Thanksgiving week, but I'd rather only have to do one that week, so I don't have to do anything on my vacation. I can't believe this semester is almost over. There is literally like two weeks of school left for me. I have this week, then the one right after Thanksgiving break. I finish my English final, take a couple of tests then I'm off to home for the break. I do have one final I have to come back for though, but I don't think that is really much of a big deal. I mean I do have to do pretty well on it to succeed in the class and get an A, but I am hoping it is possible. I have got to be optimistic. It is pretty nice right now. All the roommates are gone and I am getting to enjoy some alone time in the room right now. It is nice when everyone is away sometimes, because I can set the lights and air how I want and not have to listen to everyone else talk or accommodate for them. I need this week to go by fast. At least I don't have any exams this week, I just need to get some stuff going for my English project and I should be set. I already started the project and found some good images of tanning beds. I just need to put it all together now and figure out how I am supposed to cite my sources on there. I think if I work on it all tomorrow, and then finish up the rest on Tuesday it should be fine. I don't want to do anything on Wednesday but pack and go and get my pedicure. The last thing I want to do is scrounge for time trying to get last minute stuff done. I am doing no readings this week. I figure if I get all these big things done this week, then after this I have about three weeks to just catch up on some reading stuff. I am hopeful that I will be alright when it comes down to test time. This semester did go by pretty fast I have to admit. It is crazy that Thanksgiving is in less than two weeks. It was finally cold out today giving that winter feeling, although I am not a big fan of the cold. I was literally freezing wishing it was once again that 100 degrees outside. I think I would take hot every time over cold, except when I am sleeping. That is the worst when you are hot in your bed. I can't even cover up with my blankets when it is like that. Hopefully tonight will be a nice cold night, since it has been chilly outside the last couple of days.

Yesterday

So today is going to be a day of two blogs since I accidentally forgot to do it yesterday. It wasn't so much that I forgot, I was just extremely busy. I had to do the Catwalk, which I actually ditched midway through. The thought of walking three miles in the cold weather yesterday did not sound too appealing. After that I just relaxed for a little bit, failed to accomplish doing any homework, and probably spent over an hour trying to figure what the heck was wrong with my printer. It just stopped working, for no apparent reason. I became really frustrated. After that I went to go watch that awful football game. What a joke. I cannot believe we lost. We were so close, we had it, then we blew it. O well, maybe a Rose Bowl is not something to be hoping for this year. After that I just hung out at my boyfriends, and relaxed. It was a nice weekend. I didn't really have to get ready much, had a nice BBQ, and just hung out with some friends. Unfortunately it is about over and now comes the time where I need to get down and focus on all the work I need to do. I am so far behind on my readings, but I figure if I can get all these big projects out of the way this weekend, then hopefully I will have about three weeks to just catch up on the readings. Pretty soon I have to go meet up with my group and start on my project for that awful African class. I am not excited about that. After that teacher argued with me, I feel like I have no respect for the class anymore. I am a good student, and I know that. And when someone is just rude for no apparent reason except they have some sort of bitter chip on their shoulder it really frustrates me. It makes me not want to work as hard in the class, because I have no appreciation for it or the material any longer. At least it is almost over. What, like 4 weeks left? That is nothing. I just need it to come extremely fast and have it be done with. I leave for Hawaii in 5 days. I cannot wait to get away and do nothing. It should be quite the fun time!!!

School

Well today was an interesting day. I had some family issues I needed to deal with and luckily those are over. I had to drive a lot today so that kind of sucked. I think I am over the whole driving thing for the rest of the day. Plus I got up fairly early for how late I went to bed last night. Now I am trying to work on this English project since it needs to be completed before I leave for my vacation next week. I have come to the conclusion that making a webpage is actually pretty difficult. I thought I was the computer savy one, but it is pretty dang hard. At least I have gotten it set up and started to fill in some of the stuff for it. I think tomorrow and Sunday will be spending a lot of time on this. I also have to do my extra credit paper for my other class, and work on my presentation for my African one. Wow, everything is being crammed right up until the end. I can't believe I already leave for Hawaii in a week, then a week later I am back in school and after that week I am free, done, don't have to do any work whatsoever. I cannot wait. It can't come soon enough. I am a little bit freaking out though about all my classes having everything at the end of the semester. I am so far behind in my readings, it is pretty ridiculous. But I figure if I get most of these large projects out of the way, then all the extra time can just be spent catching up on my readings and what not before the exams start all over again. Tomorrow I get my grade for my exam that I took yesterday. I am a little nervous for that. I am just hoping I got a good enough grade so I don't have to walk away with a B. I think that would be pretty sucky in my opinion. I have done so well on the first two, so doing poorly on on this one would be pretty sucky. I just found another pet peeve of mine. I hate when people whisper in the room while I am sitting right here. The chances are that they aren't talking about me, but it is still irritating. You get this feeling that everyone is out to get you. Who knows... Maybe I am just paranoid. So this weekend I have it all planned out. Tonight is dinner and a movie. Tomorrow, catwalk, webpage, night time!. Sunday, Paper, and project. Monday, any of the stuff I didn't get done I need to work on. Ah now I am going to feel guilty that I am not working on it tonight. Ugh... School... Gets to me every time.

Some people...

Just finished my exam, and I already know that I missed a few. What a disaster. I really need an A in this class, and if one exam completely screws me over I am going to be so angry. I only have 17 points to spare in this class over this exam and a final of 80 questions. I think that sucks. If I do bad on on exam or project it completely screws me over and there ya go my grade is gone. I have kind of had a crappy day today. Yesterday was a much better day even though I spent the entire day studying for my exam and then get screwed over on some questions today. I decided one of my teachers is the most annoying obnoxious people I have ever met. She tries to make everything so difficult. I swear she puts herself on the same level as the students. I used to like the class, but now I have become so angry at her that I have grown to hate it. Today she started arguing with my group over our presentation day. We were going to switch days to accommodate another group, but it turned into some huge debacle. Ugh... I thought teachers were supposed to be professionals, not other students who you debate with. Thank goodness there are not many classes left. I almost took another class from her too. I can't even imagine having her again. And to think that she might write me a letter or rec for law school. What a joke. I think I became so mad about that it affected my test taking. I am pretty pissed that I already know I missed some questions too. That is the worst feeling when you know you are already in the whole, and that is without all the other questions I probably missed. Gosh I really hope I can still pull off an A. To get a 4.0 would be so great. I have been really trying for this semester too. If one or two classes screw me over I am going to be pretty upset. I guess we will just have to wait and see. This semester needs to be over! I need a few weeks off and I want to be able to go on a vacation and not have to worry about other homework or things I need to get done during the trip or when I come back. I just want to be able to go home without any books or notes or folders and just sit and watch TV and watch movies and relax with my family and boyfriend. Sooner than I realize it will be here. I guess it is just never soon enough for me though...

Daily Venting

I am getting extremely frustrated with my cultural psych class right now. It has been a week! A whole week, since I have taken my exam. And the big issue here is that it is scan tron. I cannot come to any reason why a scan tron test would take this long to grade and post, unless my grade for some odd reason just isn't appearing on D2L. Just what I need to deal with today. I mean I admit that there were a couple short answers, but only maybe a page worth. I even got back my other test today which was completely essays. It just doesn't make sense to me why it would be taking this long unless there were some serious issues with it or something. Ideally the best situation would be they lost all the test and we all get 100's. Like that would ever happen, especially to me. I think I am just not a very lucky person. Every time I get a lottery scratch ticket or something I lose. Even on my last cruise I put in five dollars into a stupid 5 cent slot machine and I didn't even receive a single credit back. What a joke... Well now I am starting to ramble. I just wish my grade would be posted so the pressure would be taken off my shoulder. I am just crossing my fingers that I did alright on it. I need a good grade on it, actually an A so that I don't have to take the final. That is the last thing I want to have to do, is take a cumulative final on the same day as another final. I just want to do well on this exam, then on my next three, get A's in the classes and just worry about one single final. That would be the ideal situation. I am trying, doing all the readings and what not, but it is starting to catch up with me I think. I am getting behind in my readings, especially in my online class. There is just so much of it, I mean over 100 pages total every day. I think that is a bit much. Sometimes I just have to relax and get away from it and now it is falling behind. I think it is alright though, I can eventually catch up. I can't believe we only have 5 weeks left of school. Thank Goodness!!!! I cannot wait for Christmas break and not have to do anything but relax every single day and enjoy my cruise coming up. I can't wait for that! Right now I am listening to an incredibly boring lecture about bias and prejudice. That is why I am blogging and venting. My daily vent once again.

Relaxing Night

Well here goes round two for the day. I am starting to feel better finally. I cleaned the room up today, vacuumed the floors, sanitized everything including my bed even. It looks pretty good and smells a whole lot better too. It is crazy how a little tidying up can make such a difference in a small space. I warned my roommates that next year when we have a house my room is going to be absolutely spotless. I think I get the clean freak from my mom. Always growing up I was told to pick up things and saw my mom constantly cleaning and vacuuming the floors. So I am used to it now, and always wonder how no one else seems to want to clean up. Some people live in piles of clothes and trash. It is just disgusting. No wonder I got sick. There were probably so many germs in this room. It was unhealthy. But now everything is clean, and it looks a whole lot better. I feel that I can just relax now and do my homework without worrying about stepping on food crumbs or hair being stuck in between all my toes. My feet actually won't get dirty now from just walking around. I even made my bed today, put my fresh sheets on and it looks really good. The only thing I didn't do was unpack my suit case with my winter clothes, but I still have no idea where to put them just yet. I don't even have enough hangers for them, so I am still waiting for an opportunity to do that. Maybe this upcoming weekend. I have no plans, and I have no exams the following week before I leave for my trip. Although, since I am going to be gone, I am going to need to do this English assignment a little bit early. I am excited to do this one though. It will be fun doing something different than just typing a paper. I think I am going to do a website, which should be pretty fun. That just reminded me that I think I am actually going to work on the memo right now, because I have an exam on Thursday and I really am not going to have time to do anything else. So I think that is what is up next on my list for the night. I am going to avoid a movie tonight, I don't really have anything in particular to watch anyways until my next netflix comes in the mail tomorrow. So tonight will be a nice night to get some homework done in advanced, even though I still have some stuff to make up, but that's alright. Good relaxing Sunday night. What could be better?

First blog

Well today is one of two blogs I am going to write. After being sick this past week the blogs just kind of went downhill for me. I forgot to write one both on Friday and on Saturday. I felt like crap on Friday and pretty much slept the entire day. If I tried to read the simplest thing my head began pounding. So luckily today I am starting to feel a little better, only after going through a whole box of sinus and cold medicine and two boxes of tissues. I am still stuffed up and to be quite honest the sound of doing homework sounds absolutely horrible. I am very far behind in a lot of my readings though, and I really really need to catch up. Luckily though I was feeling a little better yesterday and was able to get myself up and walk around the mall for homecoming and enjoy a nice game a football. That was a great game yesterday. We killed them. Although, I have to admit it was pretty boring. I think I would have rather it been a close game to build up the excitement a little bit more. By the end of the first half I think the student section was almost completely empty. It was pretty pathetic anyways. Right now I am just starting homework, pretty hungry, but waiting for my boyfriend to get hungry so I can go eat. Ugh... I hate waiting. The florescent lights were on this morning at 9 AM. I don't think my head can handle that that early. So as soon as my roommate leaves, off they go. I don't know how anyone can prefer that type of lighting over sunlight. Sometimes I think lights were a bad invention. I think I could possibly deal without them sometimes. So now I don't know what to get for lunch today. I am debating on either a sandwich or I'm not sure. I guess we will see. I am pretty hungry though, and I don't know how much longer I can wait. I don't know how anyone can wake up and not be hungry. I bet anything though, he is probably eating some granola bar or something and then he will claim he is not hungry. Ugh... This is why I just wish I had my own kitchen so I could just make my own lunch and not have to worry about going out and dealing with all the Tucson traffic just for a stupid sandwich. I think I need some time at home to have my mom make me food and I can relax and get healthy. Hopefully that comes up soon!!

Dirty Room

And another day has gone by. Another sick day for that matter. Here I lay in my bed sweating and surrounded by used Kleenex. This really sucks. I cannot figure out why the heck this stupid cold will not go away. I swear this is the worst cold I have ever had. I didn't get the extremely long hurting sore throat but geez... I sure have had this stupid running nose and congested head for days now. I really need it to go away soon, because I am getting so far behind in homework and my classes. I had to miss half of my classes today, because I was so exhausted and weak. I am barely able to right this blog right now, but I figured if I can get it done now, then I can take the day off on Saturday and avoid writing one. At least all my roommates are out for the night. I swear if they wake me up though I am going to be absolutely livid. I need a good night sleep. I have already taken all my sleeping meds so I am hoping I just get knocked out after this blog and sleep through the night and have a nice sleeping in time in the morning. I am going to be so mad if I get woken up tonight for some rare reason. I already felt like crap and had to pick up the room after my roommates. I swear, I feel like I am taking care of little kids sometimes. I don't understand how hard it is to throw away trash or pick up your leftovers you left on the table. Their parents must have never taught them any sort of manners, because it is just disgusting. Here I am, feeling like crap, just wanting to watch a movie on the sofa. The area is so disgusting, that I can't even sit there because I feel gross. I can't even use my own TV. Not even one that they brought because they have their crap all over the room including drinks being spilled on the coffee table that I bought. Funny how when its not their stuff they could care less. Heck they probably could care less about their own stuff, because they will just go out and buy a new one if it gets ruined. What a joke. People have no appreciation these days. One time I would like them to go live in some third world country for a while then come back and see how they treat theirs and others stuff. It is ridiculous. No wonder I feel like crap. The room is so gross and dirty and dusty. There are probably germs lurking everywhere in the room. Ugh!!!!

Still Sick, Very Sick

This is probably going to be one of the lamest blogs I have ever written. I have become so sick from today. I thought I would have gotten a little bit better after yesterday, but no I have just gotten much worse. A lot worse. I did nothing but lay in bed today. I tried to do homework and reading, but my head hurt so badly that I could not even read a single page. So now I am even further behind on my readings than I already was. This weekend, besides the game, I really need to catch up. I think Friday all day, until the nighttime, I am just going to work on my readings that I haven't done this week and the week before, and the week before that. Ah, it never goes away. I am so exhausted right now, and feel like absolute crap. I think I need to just stay in bed tomorrow, but that is not going to happen because there are attendance in my classes this semester and I cannot miss. So instead, I am going to come to school, and my germs are just going to spread. They tell you to stay home when you are sick, but then you lose points in class, so I don't really understand how I am supposed to get around that problem. I guess I will just go... It is not my fault then if someone else gets sick because of me, because you know what, I have no choice. I have to be there. I am crossing my fingers that I will be better tomorrow. I am hoping this is the peak of the sickness and tomorrow will be the decline. I have even become delirious. Tonight I asked my boyfriend in a text message if he was my favorite teacher? That does not even make any sense whatsoever. It is crazy, and so is my mood right now. I am getting pissed off quite easily, and all I want is to be at home in my big bed with my television and my mom bringing me soup and crackers every meal. Instead, I am forced to do homework, go to school, and many other stupid things. Ugh... I need to get better, and quickly!

Sick, Sick, Sick

Today I am very sick. I wasn't feeling very well last night and today I feel like utter crap. I had my two exams, which I did not feel very confident in after leaving both of them and I have had to sit through four long classes. My throat hurts, my nose won't stop running, I have a headache, my body aches, and my eyes hurt. I haven't had a cold in a while, but as far as I can remember I haven't had one this bad in a long time. Everyone thinks I seem uninterested in them today, but in reality I just don't feel well and do not care. I am doing absolutely no homework tonight besides this blog. Tomorrow I have to go and volunteer at a school, not to my satisfaction, and then I am going to go enjoy the first basketball game of the season. I am just so tired and worn down that all I want to do is have a day where I do absolutely nothing. No homework, no work, no gym, no nothing. I just want to wake up whenever I wake up, eat some food, lay in bed, and watch some movies until I fall asleep again for the night. Literally the last thing I want to do is go volunteer with some snotty 7th grade kids. I just need this long week to be over. I think this semester is finally getting to me. I am so over the workloads and the homework and the studying and the multiple exams I have every single week. I just need a break. I don't know how I am ever going to work. Having so much routine is going to kill me. I couldn't imagine not even getting the weekends off. I think I just want to be in kindergarten again. I go to school for a couple hours, then come home and my mom makes me some snacks, then I play dress up, and watch TV. What a great life that is. We are always in such a hurry to grow up and once we do we wish we could go back in time. I heard a good quote the other day about how we are dying to grow up, dying to go to college, dying to get married, dying to have kids, dying to work, dying to retire, and then sooner or later we are actually dying. I think I just need to focus in the moment I have and appreciate what is all around me, because one day either I or it won't be there any more and all that hurrying up will be for nothing, because it will be all gone. I really just want to stay a child, I think that would be a pretty fun life.

Today

Well today I started my studying for one of my exams on Tuesday. I think most of the day I tried to ignore the fact that it is approaching soon, very soon. Also, considering tomorrow I have to drive back to Tucson and spend a couple hours at chapter, my day is going to be cut quite short. Hopefully I have enough energy tomorrow night that I can manage to stay up later than normal and study everything I need to know. For some reason I am not stressing for my exams though, probably because the study guides are done and I have been studying quite a bit already. Today was a pretty good day. I woke up, had a nice homemade lunch and just spent some time with the family. I took my dog for his daily walk, I am hoping I have time for this again tomorrow. He loves to go on walks. All I have to do is walk to the drawer with his leash in it and he goes crazy. He jumps, and whines, and runs all over the place. For some reason walks are his favorite thing to do, and play with his Frisbee. Unfortunately though, I lost it today. I was throwing it to him and it went over the neighbors fence. I was pretty bummed, so I put a letter on the wall with some tape. I really hope they see it, or I am going to be pretty upset that I lost my dogs favorite toy. He literally gets so excited when we play with it, and if it is gone that is quite upsetting. What else did I do today... I think I just spent a lot of time relaxing and doing some homework. I can't believe how late it is already though. This weekend went by so quickly. Weekends always go by quickly, but considering I don't have that many left this year is crazy. I was counting today while looking at my calendar and then realized that I only have around three weekends left. This weekend is Homecoming, the next is a nice open weekend that I can catch up on some homework, then the following weekend I am off to Hawaii. After that is Thanksgiving, then one more weekend in Tucson, I take my finals early, and I am off to home for winter break. Winter break should be nice. I am going to do nothing, but watch TV and movies and relax. I wish it would come sooner, it is time for a big break.