Sick, Sick, Sick

Today I am very sick. I wasn't feeling very well last night and today I feel like utter crap. I had my two exams, which I did not feel very confident in after leaving both of them and I have had to sit through four long classes. My throat hurts, my nose won't stop running, I have a headache, my body aches, and my eyes hurt. I haven't had a cold in a while, but as far as I can remember I haven't had one this bad in a long time. Everyone thinks I seem uninterested in them today, but in reality I just don't feel well and do not care. I am doing absolutely no homework tonight besides this blog. Tomorrow I have to go and volunteer at a school, not to my satisfaction, and then I am going to go enjoy the first basketball game of the season. I am just so tired and worn down that all I want to do is have a day where I do absolutely nothing. No homework, no work, no gym, no nothing. I just want to wake up whenever I wake up, eat some food, lay in bed, and watch some movies until I fall asleep again for the night. Literally the last thing I want to do is go volunteer with some snotty 7th grade kids. I just need this long week to be over. I think this semester is finally getting to me. I am so over the workloads and the homework and the studying and the multiple exams I have every single week. I just need a break. I don't know how I am ever going to work. Having so much routine is going to kill me. I couldn't imagine not even getting the weekends off. I think I just want to be in kindergarten again. I go to school for a couple hours, then come home and my mom makes me some snacks, then I play dress up, and watch TV. What a great life that is. We are always in such a hurry to grow up and once we do we wish we could go back in time. I heard a good quote the other day about how we are dying to grow up, dying to go to college, dying to get married, dying to have kids, dying to work, dying to retire, and then sooner or later we are actually dying. I think I just need to focus in the moment I have and appreciate what is all around me, because one day either I or it won't be there any more and all that hurrying up will be for nothing, because it will be all gone. I really just want to stay a child, I think that would be a pretty fun life.