Feeling Guilty

I was just reading other peer's blogs and have come to the conclusion mine is the most random pile of complaints out of everyone. Everyone else seems to just talk about stuff that we went over in class or something that is inspirational to them. Mind is pretty much about nothing... I guess I am just not meant to be a great writer, but that is alright, I love to just let out all my feelings on here. I think this helps me avoid complaining to my roommates and family. When I start to complain to them, I think they start to tune me out and I end up just complaining to myself. I also have a problem with needing reassurance. Whenever I have homework and I do not do it, I start to feel guilty. I worry it is going to pile up, then it will overwhelm me, and then I won't have time to prepare and study when it comes to an exam. I am going to be extremely overwhelmed this week. I am trying to complete all my readings and homework this weekend for both this week and the following. I am going on a cruise next week and the last thing I want to do or worry about is homework. I mean com'on who wants to do homework when they can be enjoying themselves eating or laying out in the sun. I would rather not. And I have come to the conclusion that even if I bring my homework, I know I will not work on it. There will always be something else that will seem better. So in that case, I just need to finish it before I go, so I don't have anything to worry about. Good idea huh.... Let's just hope I finish it. I feel so guilty that I am even on my computer right now and about to go watch a movie instead of finishing my readings. I get nervous that I might forget to do it or something. Who knows... Hopefully I will get it done. I am at home this weekend, and I also tend to not do homework here either. It is kind of like a mini vacation, where I feel like I don't have to do anything. Well hopefully, I am extremely bored tomorrow and I just do my homework. I will cross my fingers.